6.1.1976 school

I thought of going back to school in terms of all the work that has accumulated over the past four weeks. To have finished all of it, would have meant a whole Christmas of self-imposed imprisonment in my room.
I never tire of saying that I have made great progress as far as the oppostie sex goes. Today I really wondered. certainly my attitudes have changed, but my methods of "capture" have been increasingly beset by laziness. At Anne's party I did not want to make the effort. If I do not make an effort this timeto form a better relationship (what an euphemism!) with Margaret, I can visualise myself getting nowhere. Admittedly, circumstances are not exactly favourable. One just doesn't talk to a girl who is not recognised as one of the acceptable "group"- Ugh!
I plan to get rid of all this hyperinhibition and hae made great strides through self hypnosis. Now that I have learned how to utilise the suggestible nature of the subconscious, anything is possible. I can say that I have achieved the light hypnotic state = very deep relaxation, when suggestions have great effect, twice now. The first was really weird. I felt that my body had become a hollow shell and I was running about inside it like a spider. The second one was peaceful and my arms felt light.
With the aid of self hypnosis I have started a diet as I weigh too much and possess too much unsightly flab.