13.6 Hades ‘fish bar’

Descended in the Hades ‘fish bar’ (Oh! What a euphemism that has such unpleasant connotations!) No, it was bad, but not as bad as that.
What was significant today was a meeting with Tina on the bus home. I am in a bit of a dilemma now – things are reasonably ripe for me to begin a relationship with her, but there is that ever present barrier of age – she is still 13/14, chronologically speaking, although I would up that by a year if one talks about physical , mental age, etc. She is attractive on both physical and mental respects. I fell drawn towards her, but I have some forebodings about how things would turn out (or rather, after effects). And then I say to myself, “Sod the Rest, follow my desires”; then, “but what do I want?” A vicious (?) circle is set up.
I told her, amongst some well timed sincere flattery, that were she older I would take her. She appears so fresh and untouched, as it encapsulating early days of Spring. I think I am being caught on an emotional weak point at the moment by her, because I have been affected by the spring days spent among friends, full of Joie de Vivre...and yet there appears to be some longing, deep down. I want to be alone, but with someone.